I went running the other day - ran for .62 of a mile. Felt fine - but my knee was giving. So, I need to make sure I always wear my patellar band. We're going to attempt a mile today and see how that goes. I'm being very slow and very careful, but figure if I can at least run a solid two- three miles, taking the walk in between those miles and running again won't be that bad for the tri.
On the side of all of that though - is some void. It's something I can't really explain. It's something I've been feeling pretty consistently since March. My favorite religion teacher at BYU said it will go away with babies. And maybe that's what it is... being baby hungry? I mean, I know I am because I see cute baby clothes in the stores, and think, oh it's so time for that in our lives.
But then I remember that I need to be at my job for at least a year for FMLA to take effect - meaning they have to keep my job for 12 weeks while I'm on leave. Then I remember how crazy I am about the time frame they should be born in, and I remember that the cars need to be paid off, and I remember that we need to put a fence up, and we need an emergency savings, and I remember that there are all these extra things that need to happen first... and I'm patient again.
But will a baby really feel that void? I'm not so sure. Because it all stems from not doing what I really want to do be doing with my life. It includes so much more I feel... but is that just me being crazy? Being bored?
So, I'll take it day by day until I figure that out. And we'll keep training for the tri that I'm just SO excited for! I'm so glad I get to do it, and just can't wait!
Okay, it's time for us to get back into our blogging. I have several posts without comments and it looks like I've missed some of yours, too! I think our blogs can make all the difference and I'm going to try to be much better at posting and commenting! Here we go again! :)
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